Blessings

I got a new CD for my birthday, and it is now my favorite CD to listen to!  It's called Blessings by Laura Story.  The title song is what caught my attention at first.  If you haven't heard it, I encourage you to listen to it.  It's like she knows exactly what I've dealt with the past 18 months. 

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise

This song really has changed my perspective on what I went through with being sick, losing that initial bonding time with my newborn, losing Garrett at 16 weeks, anxiety and depression, uncertainty with job situations, and my grandmother's deteriorating health.  As angry as I've been about having to deal with all of those things, especially in such a short amount of time, God brought me through each trial.  He proved his faithfulness and goodness over and over even though I wished that situations would have turned out differently.  My faith and my dependence on God are stronger than they have ever been before. 

Peter usually likes to listen to VeggieTales in the car, but we've been compromising lately as I like to listen to other things as well.  I've played my new CD a couple of times in the car, and I always tell him which song is my favorite song.  He's probably heard it a maximum of 3 times. 

The radio was on in the house yesterday, and Blessings came on.  Before the 2nd line of lyrics had been sung, Peter was telling Andrew how that is Mommy's favorite song and how much I like to listen to it.  Wow - his memory is amazing!! 

I hope this song speaks to someone in a new way like it has spoken to me.  What if some of our greatest trials are really just God's blessings in disguise?